Now it is time to share with all inner fears and emotions, which led me to confusion. Three years have I been going to my dream doing my best, spending much of my free time, thinking about my next steps. However, later I understood that my goal and ambitions are backed up with fears and personal complexes. I lived in illusion, which created a mimic road. My story began when I studied at my first school, where I was good at everything - from grades to social recognition of others. All these things were easy to achieve, because the rank of my school was low, whereas teachers were not very demanding and strict. I was overpraised for nothing. I used to like getting attention and admiration from people without putting much effort. Then, I moved to a better school, where my self-assurance of the “perfect” guy was broken, as was eventually I. There were forty students in my class, who were stronger and better than me in every aspect: academics, money, recognition of girls. I lost the feeling of control and satisfaction, which I used to get at my first school. Tranquility and emptiness were the only things inside me. I suffered from a narcissistic personality disorder, a mental condition when someone has an inflated sense of their own importance, a deep need for excessive attention. Meanwhile, I understood that if I could not change the present, I was able to change the future. I started to think about how to improve my weaknesses. Then, I concluded that I could change the situation if I earn my first money. It would have meant that I “worked hard and played smart” in order to achieve my goal. To be better than others, I decided to do everything in order to come to the point. I wanted to study in a developed country and get a good salary. I was approaching it and have almost done it. One day I asked myself “Why do I want to be the best?’, “Why do I spend that much energy on work?” I decided to walk around the house just to think. Wondering around the house for half an hour trying to understand what is the problem, I came to the answer. I just wanted to become happy. Furthermore, Lodz university is located in Lodz, the most beautiful city in Lo;an. This is a place, where I can elaborate all my skills, potential and knowledge, which can help me to achieve all my goals. This is the place, where all nice conditions concentrated , which makes my education much more interesting and easier. Also, university provides students with great students life, which will make my life in this place memorable and happy. Equally important, I chose business administration because it provides me with wide range of career paths such as social and community service manager, management analyst etc., which I really like and enjoy to do. This is what makes me passionate. Moreover, this is a field of study, which improves skills such as leadership, team play and creativity. I believe that these skills actually will help me to strive and prosper in my job. All in all, that is why I chose this place and major. Now, I am a person, whose interests come from heart and soul. I want to live my own life, where I control my thoughts and feelings. I have accepted the fact that there are billions of people around the world that are better than me in something. So, my destination in clear: I do not chase money – I do what I like, what makes me feel alive, and soon, money and success will chase me.